I've been feeling like a failure as a farmer lately.
My garden produced nothing but zuccini and tomatoes this year. I planted a lot more than that!
I planted 2 apple trees and a cherry tree, they all died.
I planted 6 blackberries, they all died.
I planted 3 blueberries, they all died.
My laying hen hasn't laid in a month. She is showing no signs of giving up on being broody. My other laying hen got eaten by a hawk.
My goat is giving barely enough milk for us to drink each day. We aren't getting any extra to freeze or make cheese.
My garden is now lawn. Seriously, you can no longer tell where it was except a small part I manage to keep cleared.
My garlic bed got totally overtaken by weeds. I can't even find the bed anymore!
I have 10 meat birds ready to process. I've managed to process 3 of them and I hate it! I don't know what I'm doing. It takes forever and seems unsanitary to me. I dread doing the last 7 and am honestly not sure I can do it. I now need to figure out what to do with these 7 birds. And the thought of eating the meat I did get makes me ill.
My family would starve if feeding them was up to me. To make matters worse, I've been buying more convenience foods lately because I'm stressed and busy.
I feel like we've invested all this money for no return.
Some farmer I've turned out to be.